The Question of Darkness


I have a working theory which says, people who seem to be negative, controlling, or who seem to take pleasure in another’s unhappiness, are afraid of the Light. Let me be clear, they don’t dislike the Light nor do they lack a Light of their own; they are simply afraid of the Light. I believe the reason for this stems from childhood, when they had no control over their lives. Children often feel there is something wrong with them when things happen around them which they do not understand; they blame themselves, assume responsibility. I believe children can think their Light is causing the problems and begin to hide their light in order to keep peace and harmony; they might fade into the background or they might become strong and controlling and negative to show they are as dark as the world they see around them.

These children grow up to become adults who Love the Light but are afraid of it. They will become involved with a being of Light and then, after marriage/commitment, become mentally and emotionally abusive to the being of Light. Not because they don’t like the Light but because it scares them. They know, from experience, the Light is dangerous and the being of Light is endangering themselves so the person who is hiding their Light begins trying to protect the being of Light from themselves by getting them to hide their Light. After years of deprogramming, because it is the equivalent of deprogramming, the Light being begins to dim their Light. Any children born to this union will also be required to dim their Light if it shines too brightly and comes into the awareness of the protective parent. The parent does not see their behavior as abusive because they are doing their job as a parent; protecting their children at all costs.

I admire all the Lightworker’s in the world who take on the responsibility of bringing out the Light in the rest of us. Being paired with someone who is so afraid of the Light is a huge challenge and not one I think most Lightworker’s assume with intent. I think they fall into this role because they believe their Light is appreciated and then are confused when their Light is suddenly not okay. However, if survived, this is the tempering which makes the Lightworker strong and able to withstand anything the world throws their way. Imagine how well tuned a Lightworker is who can convince a scared child/adult to let their Light shine when they are terrified to do so. Imagine the Love required to overcome the resistance. It may seem insurmountable.

I think, with the understanding I’ve come to, it may be possible to withstand the onslaught of abuse until the Lightworker can show, through example, how safe living in the Light can be. As Lightworker’s, I think this is why we are here; to understand, to patiently be an example of Light, and to bend without breaking under the pressure to conform. Water is malleable and does not pressure objects around it to change but it does change the objects around it over time. Be the water, be the Light. We all need you.

Are there any thoughts you would add to this?


About tsandhage

I blog about my journey towards personal growth. I have been extremely ill and have been fortunate enough to find some recovery. I have taught College level computer classes, been a Massage Therapist, and a Feldenkrais Practitioner which is someone who works with the brain and nervous system to help people find more ability to function and live their lives well. Currently, I live in a RV and travel. I'm on a journey to find out more about myself. I also do photography, write, and have been married over 30 years to my marvelous husband, Jeff. I hope to post once per month. I will share about my life here. I hope you enjoy your time here. I also have a FB Group called "Therese Sandhage" where I put out daily quotes and do my best to encourage the best in all of us and a FB Page called "Gr8 Life" where I talk about what I'm doing in my RV life.
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