After I wrote my last post, I was thinking more about energy sensitivity and the need to protect oneself. It occured to me that maybe I was going about things backwards. Pat Parelli, a horse trainer, says, “If you want results no one else is getting, you must do things no one else is doing.” I don’t know if that’s exactly the way he says it but it’s close. Anyway, the point for me is, everyone says protect yourself from the energies of others. And, I’ve tried that and it feels like my sphere of comfort is getting smaller and smaller. Pretty soon I will be so busy protecting and clearing myself I won’t have much time for anything else. Also, it occured to me, when I release my fears which cause me to get triggered by others, I no longer react to those buttons being pushed and, normally, I have no idea someone has attempted to push a button. If I do notice, it’s because they have an odd look on their face and I realize my response was not the one they were expecting. So, I know they said or did something and I missed it completely. If I spend time figuring it out, it often takes 3 days before I realize what I was supposed to do and why. I’ve since quit caring. Regardless, it occured to me my lack of reaction happens because there is no longer anything in me to which those remarks can attach, therefore, they move right through me. I wondered, if I were to apply the same idea to the concept of energy sensitivity, could I get to the point where other people’s energy no longer affected me?
Soon after, I was re-reading “A Course In Miracles (ACIM)” which was talking about releasing resistance. Well, I think protecting myself and clearing myself of everyone else’s energy is definitely a form of resistance. So, I decided I would be completely open to whatever anyone wanted to throw at me. I still don’t seek out places where people are hateful. However, I do not retreat or become defensive when I encounter hatefulness. What I have noticed is an increase in energy, almost no acquisition of other’s energy, and a willingness to return to being around people and interacting with them. I have also noticed my Ego feeling a need to bring up all sorts of things which it feels are fearful. I’m use to that because that is always my Ego’s reaction when I move deeper into the releasing of fear areas of my life.
I have been saying “Yes” to situations I would normally have said I didn’t want to endure. Yes, I thought of them as something to endure. Can we say resistance? I have released the need to think I will be unhappy or not enjoy myself. I have decided to look for the lesson, if there is one, and to look for the benefits of whatever arises instead of noticing what I don’t like. Interestingly, since thinking this way, I really haven’t had a lot of things come up that I don’t like. So, maybe there’s something to letting go of resistance.