Visiting Mom

2007-3 Woodpile@Claudia's Place

I visited my Mom for 4 days a week or so ago. This is the first time I’ve ever spent time alone with my Mom. Overall, we had a pretty decent time. I learned a lot about myself and my Mom during my visit. The biggest thing I learned about myself is I have a strong tendency to want happiness for others more than they want it for themselves. While this may be honorable, it is not a trait I wish to continue.

I want to develop my observational skills. I tend to listen to what people are saying and ignore their actions. I may know actions speak louder than words but I tend to ignore the actions especially when the words are what I want to hear. So, I really need to do better at letting my focus be on individuals and what they are really saying. This means I must focus on both the words and actions. If they match, that makes my job of listening really easy. If the words and actions do not match, I need to know that actions always speak louder than words and listen only to the actions.

I am finding so much happiness in my life. I am releasing so many of my old judgments and beliefs and I know this is the reason I find myself almost giddy for no particular reason. I want to share that joy with others and help others find this joy for themselves. Every day my belief that I can change my health by releasing old beliefs and judgments increases. In February, I was wiped out if the temperature reached 88 degrees in a dry environment. Now, I can tolerate 90 degrees with high humidity though I don’t stay out in it too long. A couple days ago, I was outside in 80+ degrees and 75% humidity and I noticed I felt like my body was free, light, and able to do so much. I felt like I had the body of a person in their teens to mid-20’s; I’m 56. I was joyous because I feel this confirms how we are each able to find our way back to health.

I use to believe we all aged and got less able as we got older. Then I learned our cells are renewed at least every 2 years. Later I read Louise L. Hay who believes all dis-ease is caused by our thoughts. I cannot continue to believe aging and lessened ability are a requirement. How can we get completely new cells every 2 years and have those cells be worse than the cells they are replacing. This can only happen if we force them to be worse by our belief system. Our thoughts influence so much of our lives. Why not believe in good, love, and wonderful things. Yes, there are a lot of things that happen that are not wonderful. Why let that become our belief system? Why not believe in the wonder of our lives and abilities and let the less than wonderful things that happen be changed by a wonderful belief system? I meet so many people who feel the fear-based system is all powerful. Love always conquers fear so, just like our cells are replaced every 2 years, I believe the fear-based system will be changed through love and loving thoughts.

Visiting my Mom challenged my new belief system. I stayed in a love-based belief and found, even though fear continued to be present and desired, fear could not find a foothold within me. The inability for fear to find a foothold was new for me and her. It also started to bring about some changes in how she interacted with me. In time, those changes will grow and, possibly, find a foothold in the fear-based world. Of course, the other option is to avoid me. I am finally willing to let fear-based people live their lives and quit trying to convince them to be love-based. There are too many people who want to be love-based. Love-based people of the world unite because, if enough of us unite, the light of love will shine in the darkest corners of this Earth and no fear will be able to withstand the brightness of the loving light; I sound like a preacher.


About tsandhage

I blog about my journey towards personal growth. I have been extremely ill and have been fortunate enough to find some recovery. I have taught College level computer classes, been a Massage Therapist, and a Feldenkrais Practitioner which is someone who works with the brain and nervous system to help people find more ability to function and live their lives well. Currently, I live in a RV and travel. I'm on a journey to find out more about myself. I also do photography, write, and have been married over 30 years to my marvelous husband, Jeff. I hope to post once per month. I will share about my life here. I hope you enjoy your time here. I also have a FB Group called "Therese Sandhage" where I put out daily quotes and do my best to encourage the best in all of us and a FB Page called "Gr8 Life" where I talk about what I'm doing in my RV life.
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2 Responses to Visiting Mom

  1. Toni Heckman says:

    That time with your mother had to be extremely interesting! I say that based on my own experience, history, journey and maternal relationship rather than from any knowledge of yours…. because I have no knowledge of yours. My mother was ruled by fear every step of her life. She never lived, acted or thought free of it. You are learning to view people as equines do. If their feelings & actions are not congruent, the horse will turn away… it senses it cannot trust the situation.

    I believe that if people could truly experience the love & light that is available in the universe…. even once for only a few minutes…. there would be no violence, no hate, no war, no greed, no fear or selfishness, no self consciousness, no proverty with all of its challenges. For finally, we would all love, accept & care for ourselves…..& truly love others as ourselves. Its the one commandment: Love your neighbor as yourself.

    Interesting insights, T. Thanks. t. & btw, the world needs more preachers & teachers of true love.


    • tsandhage says:

      I started crying when you started talking about people experiencing a mere moment of love & light. I believe this too. I so wish I could give people that moment. The understanding that moment imparts explains EVERYTHING.

      Thank you so much for your words & the love I feel in them.


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