Shut Up!!!

This morning my mind was so busy bringing up negativity all I wanted to do was yell, “Shut Up!!!” Of course, I know that doesn’t work so, instead, I changed my perspective and began noticing the view as I drove along. I noticed the trees, the changing colors, and any other little thing that caught my eye. That helped and my mind has been decent since. The next thing that happened was my phone rang 4 times in a span of a half hour. To put that in perspective you need to know that if my phone rings 4 times per week it has been a busy phone week for me. 🙂 My clients have regular appointments and so I have no need to be on the phone. Next was taking care of animals, which is normal, but today was a restocking of supplies and figuring stuff out. This compounded with my flare-up had me wondering what message I was receiving but finding myself completely oblivious as to the message. I still don’t know.

I’ve also been experiencing overheating. By that I mean, I will feel incredibly hot and then I feel fine. It is not a hot flash because there is no sweating plus I’m past that stage. It’s more like a fever but my temperature is fine. Last night I did say I was willing to be free of all forms of illness for all time so maybe this is around that. I remember getting rid of my allergies caused things to happen that didn’t seem related to allergies at all. Thankfully, at the time, my teacher knew what was happening and helped me through it. This time I’m on my own. So, I don’t know what is happening but I do know it is really important to be accepting, open, and willing to walk through fire if necessary to get where I’m going.

I’m pleased with how quickly I’m catching myself when my ego gets negative. I can quickly change the view and come around to where the voice turns off. I know I’m developing a new muscle which takes time. Jeff leaves this weekend for Brazil. I’m interested in how this coming week is going to develop. It feels like it will be significant. If it is, I will try to put it into words and share it.

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About tsandhage

I blog about my journey towards personal growth. I have been extremely ill and have been fortunate enough to find some recovery. I have taught College level computer classes, been a Massage Therapist, and a Feldenkrais Practitioner which is someone who works with the brain and nervous system to help people find more ability to function and live their lives well. Currently, I live in a RV and travel. I'm on a journey to find out more about myself. I also do photography, write, and have been married over 30 years to my marvelous husband, Jeff. I hope to post once per month. I will share about my life here. I hope you enjoy your time here. I also have a FB Group called "Therese Sandhage" where I put out daily quotes and do my best to encourage the best in all of us and a FB Page called "Gr8 Life" where I talk about what I'm doing in my RV life.
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One Response to Shut Up!!!

  1. Carl says:

    And the hits just keep on coming. "I am willing" is pretty powerful stuff. How about 'what does this represent?' or 'please clarify this lesson" or please be more clear?Of course, those questions might be just as powerful/tough. Then again, its all only lessons.HugsCarl

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